In December, I decided I was finally sick of doing a full face of make-up every time I needed to go somewhere. It was time consuming and I’d convinced myself that, without it, I was ugly. Enough was enough! It was time for a positive change and so, aside from a lick of brow powder, I put make-up to one side.
To begin with it was pretty difficult. I just felt so self-conscious and uncomfortable. I kept thinking that anyone who looked at me was thinking how awful I looked and that obviously made me really upset!
But it was even more difficult to go to work because the people who KNOW me and see me DAILY would surely be the ones to notice the most? But no one said anything negative to me or said I looked tired or different. Even so, I wasn’t sure if I would be able to stick to this challenge for the rest of the month!
I was still a little apprehensive but, since I hadn’t had any negativity from anyone, I stuck with it. Throughout the week I went through phases of feeling good and feeling horrible but I was starting to get used to going makeup-less – by the end of the week, I was feeling more comfortable with myself and my skin!
By now, I was happy to leave the house with no foundation/concealer on – I’d stopped thinking so much about how I thought others saw me too which was a habit I’d struggled to overcome in the past. I felt just as confident without make-up as I did with it, if not better!
I realise that I now don’t care about wearing make-up at all! It makes life a lot easier – I can go to the gym without worrying about how I look, I can wake up later instead of needing 30 minutes to ‘do my face’ and I am much happier with how I look in general. On top of that, my skin has never looked better and I can now appreciate it!
What did I learn?
That most of my insecurities are in my head and focusing on covering my ‘flaws’ for so long actually stopped me from seeing what I really look like! I notice that I don’t fixate so much on things I see as flaws and I think that has a lot to do with not looking in the mirror so much – every time I did my make-up, there was negativity attached but now I am able to look at myself AND feel good!
If you’re looking for a way to break that self-conscious habit, I’d definitely suggest wearing little to no make-up for a month or so because it helped me to discover and appreciate my own beauty.